My life was remarkably unremarkable...
I had no right to complain.
Even though, most days, I found myself drowning in drama.
Not the tragic, traumatic kind. The day-to-day kind of drama that I see so many women, also drowning in.
Working long hours in our own business or someone else's to barely make ends meet, the 24/7 task of raising kids into teenagers and the pressure to be a 'good mother' (whatever that even means), the roller coaster life beyond separation or divorce, and the turmoil of broken relationships and trying to create new ones. There was never enough time. Never enough Money. Never enough of me.
But I felt like I had no right to complain about any of it. I just had to suck it up and get on with my life as best I could.
I can still remember how I use to feel...
I can still remember the first thoughts I would have when I woke up most days...
The same thoughts that would keep me awake at night...
I was consumed with the drama of worrying that:
I kept telling myself "I'll be happy when..."
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I would not be able to pay the bills.
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I would not be able to give my kids all the opportunities I wanted them to have.
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They would hate me for breaking up our family.
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I sucked as a mother.
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I would be alone for the rest of my life.
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I would never find my purpose.
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All of the decisions were now mine to make (alone).
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I would eventually screw it all up and fail.
And let me tell you...
I tried lots of stuff.
To figure out my stuff.
I read hundreds of books, attended countless workshops, seminars, self-development programs & listened to podcasts. But this only gave me intellectual wisdom.
Through the pages of my new book The Power of a Peaceful Woman, I share with you how I've taken that intellectual wisdom (which creates zero change) and applied it experientially to transform my entire life.
I don't have the answers for you, but I can show you how to find them. Because everything you need to know is within you just as the wisdom I needed was inside me too.
And this is how I knew...
On the eve of my 50th birthday, I was sleeping on a mattress on the floor in the spare room of what was once my home. I was single and unemployed.
Across the hallway, in the master bedroom, lay my ex-husband and his fiancée. They were sleeping peacefully in what once was my room and my bed.
What’s most important for you to know about this, is that as I looked up at the ceiling, I could not wipe the smile off my face.
You see I realised, in every cell of my body, I had genuinely never been happier, more peaceful, more certain of myself and who I am than in that very moment.
It was a feeling infused with an incredible sense of peaceful power that I knew I had created.
I was giggling like a child as I realised the absurdity that this scene, and in particular my joy and amusement about it, might trigger in other people.
Truth be told, if present-day me had travelled back in time and told 39 year old me, that this was how I’d spend the eve of such a major milestone birthday, I’d probably have punched her in the face and asked ‘WTF!’, how did we screw that up?!
But this only makes me laugh out loud at that thought.
Because the truth is, I am so ridiculously delighted and filled with joy with the way my life has turned out… and it is a testament to how much I have learnt, unlearnt and relearnt about myself and my life in that time.
My story is like a modern day take on the classic Wizard of Oz tale about a woman who awakened within her the most potent of powers and could, with the click of her heels, drop her armour, de-fuse her dramas and connect to her peaceful power in an instant.
And just like Dorothy, I came to know the truth.
I learnt I had that power all along, and so do you.
Ready to share in the tools, practices and wisdom that I use myself, every day, to tap into THAT power?
I want to gift you the first Lesson from my book 'The Power of a Peaceful Woman'. Listen to it now (we get to meet 'virtually' as well), to begin your own transformation to become dramaless and armourless and connect to the
power of your own inner peace, just like I have.